Can't believe it's nearly the end of the holidays already...

This holiday has been pretty good actually, I've done lots of stuff and not too much work, plus I've planned lots of stuff for coming weeks which is great.

McFly on Tuesday, very exciting! I know a lot of people think I am the world's biggest loser for liking McFly but you know what, I just don't care. They make me smile and anyone that can do that is okay in my book. I kind of have a feeling about them like I used to get about Vender. Now if any of them are reading this they will be thinking, "We were nothing LIKE McFly the CHEEK!" he he but there is just something about their spirit that reminds me of Vender. The fact that they seem to so enjoy what they're doing and be such good friends. And they're the kind of people who I could imagine being friends with (yeah, I know, as if!). So that's Tuesday night, and then Rob Brydon on Wednesday night, so a lovely fun filled week ahead!

I'm reading a book at the moment called "Millions of women are waiting to meet you". It's a bit like "50 ways to find a lover" that I think I wrote about before, but this time about a man not a woman. This one is kind of depressing me though because it's a true story and just makes me a bit cynical. It makes me feel like it's impossible to meet anyone nice and normal who would actually like me. I have nearly finished it now though which is good because I don't like thinking like that.

Went to the pub quiz last night, no idea how we did because I left before the scores but since I only answered one question and I think it was wrong anyway I don't suppose it really matters! I always see loads of people from school at the pub quiz which freaks me out a bit. I wasn't exactly well liked at school so it's always a bit traumatic to see them. But I was with friends which made it okay. I've seen Melissa and Josephine quite a bit this holiday which has been great, I'd forgotten how much I love them and I've missed seeing them. It's stupid that we live so close and never see each other, so I plan to not let that happen again.

And now onto the obligatory "mad" part of the blog (as if the rest has been totally run of the mill). I realised last week that I really miss "man smell". Now by that I do not mean any of the following:
feet
deoderant overdose
aftershave overdose
unwashed clothes
beer
unwashed generally
What I mean is, that smell that is good about men. Which I think is kind of a mixture of aftershave (not too much!) and maybe hair gel or washing powder or something, that you just get a waft of when they walk past now and again. That makes no sense. Well, Chris always used to smell nice, it was one of the things I liked about him, and what made me realise that I miss that is that I walked past a guy the other day on my way home from the shop and he must have been on his way out for the evening I think, and he just had a really nice smell. And I thought, now that is what I miss. That, and a good hug. I haven't had a good hug for months. And that sucks.

In a lot of the books I read, the heroine always has a best friend who's a man. And they are brilliantly protective and lovely but there is no attraction going on there, and I think I'd quite like one of them. My best friend at school was a guy, and he was great, but his girlfriends always seemed really funny with me and after school we really drifted, I think partly because of that. Which was stupid because I had never looked at him that way and he'd never looked at me that way. But having a guy friend like that that you can comfortably hug without him being worried you fancy him or you being worried he fancies you is a really rare but brilliant thing. Because man hugs are somehow just better.

Madness over. I guess I just miss having someone there to cuddle. I'm just not sure how to go about finding someone to fill that gap...

Love love love xxx

PS - I looked at my site stats and seem to be getting quite a lot of visitors, including people from Coventry and Hampshire. I don't even think I know anybody from Coventry or Hampshire so that's a mystery. Anyway lovely readers, feel free to leave me comments, is always nice to know who's reading.