One week down, four to go.

This week has been really busy, mostly in a good way.

Monday is always long, lots of meetings and no chance for a sit down. On Tuesday I went after school to visit another school I've applied to in King's Bromley. Was a bit late getting there which I was annoyed about, got caught by a parent at the end of school. Really nice school though so fingers crossed there. Then Tuesday night was, of course, McFly night. Went with Katie and Ed, Emily couldn't come which made me sad. But it was amaaaaaaaaaaazing. We were pretty near the front, and they are just so good live. Even songs that aren't your favourites are brilliant live. Can't wait till the next tour!



Late night though so getting up on Wednesday was a bit painful! Wednesday morning first thing I went to visit another school with the same head as Tuesday's, in Rugeley. That was really nice too, shortlisting tomorrow. Think it'd be a miracle if I even got an interview for either though because there's been a lot of interest. A lot. And quite a lot of men who are always pretty popular in primary schools. Then after school another lens appointment then off to Wolverhampton again to see Rob Brydon. That was brilliant. A guy called Hal something opened for him, and he was great, a bit like Michael McIntyre who I really rate. And Rob was like this brilliant hybrid between Uncle Bryn and Keith Barrett, really really funny, not laughed so much in ages, I'd totally recommend going to see him if you can.

Thursday was a fairly normal day, had dancing in the evening that I was completely useless at this week, 3 weeks off didn't do me any good! Then Friday it was a case of getting through the day and going to bed!

Went out for lunch yesterday with Gemma, Katie and Ali which was good, nice to catch up, and today I sang in church this morning and worked this afternoon.

So busy busy busy! Are you impressed I've worked out how to put pictures in?! I am! He he.

The week has been a bit odd though, full of big highs and lows. I wouldn't lose the lows if it meant I lost the highs, and I know that there is a need for these times in life, but man are they a bummer when they hit! Had my recurring dream Friday night which was pretty sucky, really bummed me out yesterday. And I guess the stress over jobs and tiredness and just thinking too deeply about my life and about what happens next has just got to me a bit this week really. Been listening to a lot of music, I do find that it helps. There's a song by Kelly Clarkson I've listened to quite a bit this week - I've listened to her whole new album quite a lot but especially a song called "Already Gone". I'm not going to put all the words up here in case you don't want to wade through them, but it's about a relationship gone bad and she's decided to end it for the good of the other person and she's trying to explain that she never meant to hurt him. And there are bits of it that I just think, I wish that had been said to me, because it would have made it easier to understand, and also would have made me feel like it wasn't my fault, which for a really long time it did, and sometimes still does. Am just going to put up a few bits that have really struck me...

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop

I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

It's hard to explain why those bits have touched me without hearing the whole song (and also without being inside my head which is not recommended!) but I think it has been really powerful.

There's another song I may have spoken about on here before but I can't remember, by Taylor Swift and it's called Fifteen. And it's about how when you're 15 everything is this big drama and you don't know who you're going to be and making the right choices and stuff, and to be honest it could just as easily be called Twenty Four. It wouldn't really sound quite as good if it was called Twenty Four but it just felt like there was so much advice for me in there, not just for a 15 year old.

So there's the two recommendations for today, I could go on ad nauseum but you'd fall asleep so I won't.

I finished that book by the way, "Millions of women are waiting to meet you". I wouldn't say it was my favourite but it was quite eye opening. It kind of makes you realise that actually meeting someone isn't all that easy, but that there are a lot of people out there in the same boat. It kind of annoys me that so many books are set in London, on a slightly unrelated point. I can't say I would be thrilled about a book being set in Walsall, don't think it would sell brilliantly, but it seems like an overly large proportion of books are in London. And I've always had this strange thing about London... I love the idea of living there, but in practice I don't think I'd like it. I like to visit and pretend I live there for a few days (although I haven't done that for YEARS, anyone up for a trip?!), but I think it could be a very isolating place unless you know people there already. I guess it just has the attraction of a big city which I like.

I'm reading a book called "Flight from Deathrow" now which is by Harry Hill. It is, as expected, completely mental. It has nice short chapters too which means I can have a good old read before bed. I'm about half way through it now and not a lot has really happened but it is just mad and I love it. His housemate is Prince Edward who lives in a tunnel and he writes a column for a paper that is a translation from a pig called Estrakhan who was on Pig Brother. Will update again about it when I've finished, but so far I'm really enjoying it. I think partly because there's nothing real life about it, I love escaping into a good book for a few hours!

I'm going to view my photos on Wednesday evening, very excited about that. I really hope they're good, but I'm sure they will be, Eileen Mason's has a great reputation. I'm hoping that I'll be able to get an album made up, because I had so many outfits and stuff it'd be a shame just to have one. And then I will attempt to scan them and whack them on here, but I'm rubbish at scanning so they might be a bit wibbly. But I expect I won't get hard copies for a few weeks, just seeing them on a projector on Wednesday, including the scary scary before shot larger than life - eeep!

Right, well, this is an epic, so before I get even more carried away I shall sign off :)

Love love love xxx