Bloggety blog...

So, I've done my first 2 days at the new job with no kids. Feeling very much apprehensive about the whole thing and quite terrified of tomorrow!! Must be brave...

Update on the last blog is that I've decided against leading housegroup for the time being. Just feel like it is totally the wrong time. Job wise I know I'm going to be stupidly busy based on what I've seen so far, and church wise, well, it's in a state of disarray really. Don't really know what to do with myself there. I'm quite thankful that I have Melissa to share it with, even though I'm not thankful she's feeling like me about it, because at least we're both in the same boat and can try to get out of it together. That was such a bad sentence.

The morning after my last blog I woke up pretty late, after my camping sleep of the weekend, and really wanted to cry. And I have NO idea why. I pulled myself together though. I think maybe I was just overtired or something. Although I've been a bit weepy all week really, almost cried during Athlete on Monday night and did have a cry on Thursday at school. Although that was because I was totally overwhelmed by information and by the thought of how much I would need to do to get things to a standard I'm happy with. I think I'm more stressed about it than I'd realised really, I thought I was quite laid back about it (for me anyway), but actually I don't think I am, and I'm basing this on my sleep pattern... I have been sleeping but I've been really tense in the night, waking up with aching muscles and my cheeks and tongue have been bitten to shreds which only ever happens when I'm stressing about something. Plus I've been having horrific dreams for the last few nights and dreaming is often a sign that things aren't quite right. I went for a massage on Wednesday to try and sort out the ache which did really help actually but it's started to come back again now. Might have a nice hot bath. Oh this is so uninteresting.

Right, I'm off to do some washing and ironing for a few minutes I think, rock n roller that I am. Then bath and bed ready for my trek across the M6 tomorrow morning, woohoo!

Love love love xxx