Two blogs in two days, good grief!

This will be a bit of a ramble no doubt, it's 11 o'clock, I've just been to see Lesbian Vampire Killers, which is completely bizarre, and I plan on talking about Jason Mraz. A lot. Be afraid, be very afraid!

So, Jason Mraz. Was listening to Beautiful Mess today, and it really made me think. The song is so hopeful. Even though things are messy, he still describes it as beautiful. Which kind of made me think about my life, which is often a mess it seems, but I am beginning to see beauty in the imperfections. I guess what I'm saying is that a lot of Mraz's songs seem to be pretty positive even if they are about something not so brilliant, like Remedy, which is about his best friend's battle with cancer, but he somehow makes it full of hope and goodness. And I'm trying to look for the positives and the goodness in everything. Which I'm really not that bad at, I have a habit of believing everything and everyone is wonderful until proven crap, so it's not like a whole lifestyle change or anything, but I suppose I'm becoming aware of it more. And it is a change trying to see the good in myself. I see the good in everything and everyone else most of the time, but I rarely see anything good in myself. I feel like I have so many imperfections and so many things wrong with me. But I guess the photos yesterday made a difference here. I haven't seen them yet so could be proved wrong, but I felt like a movie star yesterday. I felt beautiful. Which NEVER happens. And I guess I just thought, well, if I can feel beautiful, even if only once, there must be some beauty there. And I'm sort of starting to think that maybe it's my imperfections that help to make me beautiful. Because the imperfections make me who I am. This probably makes no sense at all to anyone, and makes me sound dead up myself... sigh. I so shouldn't blog at this time of night.

I'm reading a book about blogging at the moment, it's called "50 ways to find a lover". It's fiction, not like a self help book or anything, but it made me wonder how many people read this blog and who they are. I have my sitemeter that tells me numbers (ish, because they include my visits too), but I never know who they are. Or should that be who you are? Hmmmm. It's a good book anyway, very funny so far.

Right, will go away now, but here is a link to Beautiful Mess live at the Nobel Peace Prize awards. I wish I could find a live version from Tuesday night because it was immense but this will do...

Beautiful Mess

and a link to Life is Wonderful live in Korea, just because the vocal trumpets really made me laugh...

Life is Wonderful

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